Well, I Did It....

After much thinking and overcoming (hopefully) my fear of being alone, I am now single again. I ended my almost two year relationship last night with Robert. I feel good about the decision, but I must admit that there is a loneliness in my heart. I already miss his voice, his smell, and his strong arms around me. But, it's for the better. He has many things that he needs to work on in his life and get situated before bringing a woman into the picture. I sincerely hope that we remain friends (after all, that's basically what we've been for the last few months in my eyes). He's a great guy, but he's not ready for what it takes to be in a relationship. And, I don't know that he'll ever be. It wasn't fair for me to keep the door closed to other potential men in my life while he's trying to figure things out. I'm ok with going through the valley's with someone, but not when they are stagnant. I can't do stagnant. I finally got tired of looking at other married couples and longing for that type of love, even though I was in a relationship. I want better. I deserve better. Maybe down the road, Robert will be what God needs Him to be. But right now, I'm a distraction and in the meantime, I'm frustrated. I hope that he listens to where God is needing him to be right now and follows His will for his life.

So, I'm moving forward. Somehow. I'm secure in my relationship with Jesus and know that He is all I need right now. I really am ok. I'm a strong woman and have lots of great things ahead of me, and I know that God has it all worked out. So, why worry? LOL!

Please keep me in your prayers, though. Although I've prepared my heart for this moment over the past few months, it still is a little bit sad. Also, pray for Robert. I know he's confused and hurt, too. I pray that we both end up exactly where God wants us... whether that means we're together or apart. I wish all the best for him.

I'm back on the market!!!